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Wednesday, May 30, 2012
A Happy Birthday
Yesterday was my son Elijah's first birthday. I still can hardly believe it.
In one sense, it doesn't seem so long ago that our litte family had only 3 people in it. Ethan was king, commanding nearly every moment of attention between my and Marc's waking hours (and some of the night!) It seems that even less time has passed since the moment I was holding Eli's little body to my chest, still blue and purple as he took his first breaths.
Yet a year has passed. In another sense, it is hard to imagine my days without Eli's sunny smile. He is happy most of the time and loves to laugh. He is patient with Ethan and with me. He is such a joy in our family!
To celebrate a one-year-old's birthday is much easier than an older child. Their likes and joys are so much simpler! Eli would be happy with most things, but it was fun to please him with some of his favorite things. He received a fun toy from us after Ethan went down for his nap, which meant that he got to play with it first all by himself, before Ethan could take over.
For dinner we had some of his favorite foods: fish sticks, fries, strawberries, and chocolate milk (we only left out eggs.)
After dinner we got out his other present, a splash pad that is hooked up to a hose. He and Ethan had a blast!
Then it was time for cake! I usually make my kids' birthday cakes, but this year we had just come home from a long weekend of fun at the first Fuentes family reunion. So I had to pick from whatever was at the Smith's bakery. To my luck and surprise, there was a cute Sesame Street one. Perfect!
I think that it is the prerogative if every one-year-old to get to eat cake with their hands. When else will he get to do this again? I'm sure that feeling the soft and squishy cake in your hands must be delightful to a little person.
To end a wonderful day, Eli fell asleep in my arms as we all watched "Tangled" together. I took him to his room and couldn't seem to set him down. I sat and watched him sleep in my arms as the room grew darker, so peaceful, so perfect. I almost didn't want the moment to end; I wanted to keep him in my arms and keep the day. The feeling reminded me of a poem I read recently by one of my favorite poets Ted Kooser.
A Happy Birthday
This evening, I sat by an open window
and read till the light was gone and the book
was no more than a part of the darkness.
I could easily have switched on a lamp,
but I wanted to ride this day down into night,
to sit alone and smooth the unreadable page
with the pale gray ghost of my hand.
In one sense, it doesn't seem so long ago that our litte family had only 3 people in it. Ethan was king, commanding nearly every moment of attention between my and Marc's waking hours (and some of the night!) It seems that even less time has passed since the moment I was holding Eli's little body to my chest, still blue and purple as he took his first breaths.
Yet a year has passed. In another sense, it is hard to imagine my days without Eli's sunny smile. He is happy most of the time and loves to laugh. He is patient with Ethan and with me. He is such a joy in our family!
To celebrate a one-year-old's birthday is much easier than an older child. Their likes and joys are so much simpler! Eli would be happy with most things, but it was fun to please him with some of his favorite things. He received a fun toy from us after Ethan went down for his nap, which meant that he got to play with it first all by himself, before Ethan could take over.
For dinner we had some of his favorite foods: fish sticks, fries, strawberries, and chocolate milk (we only left out eggs.)
After dinner we got out his other present, a splash pad that is hooked up to a hose. He and Ethan had a blast!
Then it was time for cake! I usually make my kids' birthday cakes, but this year we had just come home from a long weekend of fun at the first Fuentes family reunion. So I had to pick from whatever was at the Smith's bakery. To my luck and surprise, there was a cute Sesame Street one. Perfect!
I think that it is the prerogative if every one-year-old to get to eat cake with their hands. When else will he get to do this again? I'm sure that feeling the soft and squishy cake in your hands must be delightful to a little person.
To end a wonderful day, Eli fell asleep in my arms as we all watched "Tangled" together. I took him to his room and couldn't seem to set him down. I sat and watched him sleep in my arms as the room grew darker, so peaceful, so perfect. I almost didn't want the moment to end; I wanted to keep him in my arms and keep the day. The feeling reminded me of a poem I read recently by one of my favorite poets Ted Kooser.
A Happy Birthday
This evening, I sat by an open window
and read till the light was gone and the book
was no more than a part of the darkness.
I could easily have switched on a lamp,
but I wanted to ride this day down into night,
to sit alone and smooth the unreadable page
with the pale gray ghost of my hand.
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Nothing Gold Can Stay
The past few days I have doing a lot of thinking. I have been thinking a lot about my life and how it has turned out.
I have also thought a lot about how time flies so quickly. The days pass, my babies are growing, and life can seem so cyclical. Each day begins the same, ends the same, and contains much of the same in between. Yet I stop and look around for a minute and I can't believe that some of my precious moments are passing and some even fading a little in my memory. Yesterday I got out a book I made for Ethan from the pictures of his first year. I had to wipe the tears from my face as I looked at my baby, my firstborn, turning the pages and talking with me about what he saw. How is it that it has passed? The first precious days with him are gone.
Ethan one day old
Ethan now
Ethan is so independent now. He has such a determined personality. Sometimes I feel that separateness so completely, from the one who once shared my body, lived in the protection of my womb. Sometimes he reminds me that he is not yet gone my grabbing my face with both hands and giving me a wet kiss.
I remember what life was like 5 years ago before I met Marc. I remember how lonely I was and the uncertainty I had about my future. I didn't know what I was going to do when I graduated. I didn't have any attachments other than family, and I didn't completely know where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. My aspirations to become a high school English teacher were so close to being realized, yet seemed insufficient and somewhat hollow.
Of course I dreamed about my future life as an adult as a child and as I grew up, and these dreams all contained relationships and ultimately children. I am a very passionate person. I threw all of this into my schooling as my life progressed. Those in my classes knew how strongly I felt about writing, literature, and education. Nevertheless, it didn't matter how many people I was surrounded by in school that were career focused, and even my own aspirations for intellect and work, I knew that home life and children would be my eventual ultimate passion.
It was for this family that I ached and prayed. I waited while my friends and room-mates went on dates, while they got married, and while they had children. I now realize that my wait was not so long, but at the time the pain seemed acute.
I could never have guessed that I would meet Marc that fall and that things would begin rapidly. That in a few short months I would be married, and few more I would be pregnant.
I had friends that I graduated with that began teaching and fulfilling their career dreams. There were a few that were surprised that a person of my passion did not. How could I have explained to them that I knew that this was the time for a person to be created by me? That this, and no other time, was their time to be alive? It was time for me to be a mother. It was time for Ethan to live.
Before I could get too comfortable and consider working again, that same feeling came. My second son Eli's time had come. It was time for him to live.
Elijah one day old
Eli now
Eli's first days have passed too. He crawls, he laughs, he holds onto me. He is a joy.
The days that I wanted so much are here. Do I dare let them pass me by without a thought? I hope I can cherish them more, before they are gone. They will not keep.
Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief.
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
--Robert Frost
I have also thought a lot about how time flies so quickly. The days pass, my babies are growing, and life can seem so cyclical. Each day begins the same, ends the same, and contains much of the same in between. Yet I stop and look around for a minute and I can't believe that some of my precious moments are passing and some even fading a little in my memory. Yesterday I got out a book I made for Ethan from the pictures of his first year. I had to wipe the tears from my face as I looked at my baby, my firstborn, turning the pages and talking with me about what he saw. How is it that it has passed? The first precious days with him are gone.
Ethan is so independent now. He has such a determined personality. Sometimes I feel that separateness so completely, from the one who once shared my body, lived in the protection of my womb. Sometimes he reminds me that he is not yet gone my grabbing my face with both hands and giving me a wet kiss.
I remember what life was like 5 years ago before I met Marc. I remember how lonely I was and the uncertainty I had about my future. I didn't know what I was going to do when I graduated. I didn't have any attachments other than family, and I didn't completely know where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. My aspirations to become a high school English teacher were so close to being realized, yet seemed insufficient and somewhat hollow.
Of course I dreamed about my future life as an adult as a child and as I grew up, and these dreams all contained relationships and ultimately children. I am a very passionate person. I threw all of this into my schooling as my life progressed. Those in my classes knew how strongly I felt about writing, literature, and education. Nevertheless, it didn't matter how many people I was surrounded by in school that were career focused, and even my own aspirations for intellect and work, I knew that home life and children would be my eventual ultimate passion.
It was for this family that I ached and prayed. I waited while my friends and room-mates went on dates, while they got married, and while they had children. I now realize that my wait was not so long, but at the time the pain seemed acute.
I could never have guessed that I would meet Marc that fall and that things would begin rapidly. That in a few short months I would be married, and few more I would be pregnant.
I had friends that I graduated with that began teaching and fulfilling their career dreams. There were a few that were surprised that a person of my passion did not. How could I have explained to them that I knew that this was the time for a person to be created by me? That this, and no other time, was their time to be alive? It was time for me to be a mother. It was time for Ethan to live.
Before I could get too comfortable and consider working again, that same feeling came. My second son Eli's time had come. It was time for him to live.
Eli's first days have passed too. He crawls, he laughs, he holds onto me. He is a joy.
The days that I wanted so much are here. Do I dare let them pass me by without a thought? I hope I can cherish them more, before they are gone. They will not keep.
Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief.
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
--Robert Frost
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Having Two Kids is Fun and Time Intensive
Guess what. Having two kids is kind of time intensive. I am really amazed by my friends that consistently update their blogs. I even have a friend who is a mother of twins that updates hers at least once a week, though usually more. You rock Val.
I know that I have posted a few times about how I was going to try to post more and nothing ever came of it. Pathetic, I know. This time I am getting my dear husband involved. He has agreed to remind me to post when The kids are asleep or when one is, he will watch the baby. We'll just have to see if this works, I guess.
I have decided to devote this post to something that is easy to talk about. Can I just tell you all how much I love being a mom? It is the hardest thing that I have ever done, by far, but it is the best. I don't think that I ever could have imagined just what it would be like. The other day I made a mental list of all the things that I love about it, and it was pretty long. Here is a condensed version:
1. My children are truly the cutest children in this world. I know that most moms believe this, but I really do. I don't think that it would be possible to convince me otherwise.
2. I get to play with toys again. Ethan loves when I make car noises or stack blocks.
3. My kids think that I am funny. I can be my dorky self and they just love it. My boys laughs are the best.
4. Impromptu dance parties in the living room. 'Nuff said.
5. Children remind you that the world is amazing. They are experiencing everything for the first time, so everything is so wonderful and exciting to them. It is good to remember these things.
6. There is nothing more peaceful and serene than the face of a sleeping child. I love to hold my babies while they sleep.
7. I get to see my husband be sweet, fun, and helpful to my kids. They adore him. It is so great to watch.
8. I get to work on all of my weaknesses, like patience. I mean this one. I need all the help that I can get. I want to be a better person. Serving my little ones helps me with this.
Nothing on this list is glamorous, or exciting, or even very unique. Yet I have spent most of my time doing the things on this list. Isn't that wonderful?
The other things I have been doing I will use other posts to talk about (hopefully). Things like moving to Duchesne, Utah, of all places, sending siblings off on missions, and learning new things.
Till next time,
Amy
I know that I have posted a few times about how I was going to try to post more and nothing ever came of it. Pathetic, I know. This time I am getting my dear husband involved. He has agreed to remind me to post when The kids are asleep or when one is, he will watch the baby. We'll just have to see if this works, I guess.
I have decided to devote this post to something that is easy to talk about. Can I just tell you all how much I love being a mom? It is the hardest thing that I have ever done, by far, but it is the best. I don't think that I ever could have imagined just what it would be like. The other day I made a mental list of all the things that I love about it, and it was pretty long. Here is a condensed version:
1. My children are truly the cutest children in this world. I know that most moms believe this, but I really do. I don't think that it would be possible to convince me otherwise.
2. I get to play with toys again. Ethan loves when I make car noises or stack blocks.
3. My kids think that I am funny. I can be my dorky self and they just love it. My boys laughs are the best.
4. Impromptu dance parties in the living room. 'Nuff said.
5. Children remind you that the world is amazing. They are experiencing everything for the first time, so everything is so wonderful and exciting to them. It is good to remember these things.
6. There is nothing more peaceful and serene than the face of a sleeping child. I love to hold my babies while they sleep.
7. I get to see my husband be sweet, fun, and helpful to my kids. They adore him. It is so great to watch.
8. I get to work on all of my weaknesses, like patience. I mean this one. I need all the help that I can get. I want to be a better person. Serving my little ones helps me with this.
Nothing on this list is glamorous, or exciting, or even very unique. Yet I have spent most of my time doing the things on this list. Isn't that wonderful?
The other things I have been doing I will use other posts to talk about (hopefully). Things like moving to Duchesne, Utah, of all places, sending siblings off on missions, and learning new things.
Till next time,
Amy
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Baby Eli is here!
Well folks today, June 12, was my due date. Was.
Thankfully, instead of being in labor right now, I am holding my sweet 2 week old son in my arms.
Everything went great, but was not according to plan at all. I shouldn't be surprised by this, since a lot of my life happens this way, but I feel better when I have a plan. I was visiting Marc's parents in Manti for Memorial Day weekend when I went into labor. The strangest part is, I was warned in a way. The night before we drove to Manti I had a dream that I was in labor at Marc's parents'. In the dream my mother-in-law said, "I guess you'll just have to have your baby at my hospital." She works as a nurse at San Pete Valley hospital. I also had felt that my baby would come early, but dismissed it as wishful thinking.
The night before I hardly slept a wink on a thin mattress. In the morning, I thought I was having Braxton-Hicks contractions until I realized they were starting to be pretty regular, 10 minutes apart. I was in denial though. I wanted to have my baby with my doctor in St. George. I wanted things to go according to plan. I kept telling everyone that it was no big deal. DENIAL.
Around 6 that evening, there was no denying it any longer. The contractions were getting more intense and now were 5 minutes apart. I told Marc, "I think this is the real thing. It actually is the real thing!" Luckily, my mother-in-law knew exactly which doctor was on call that weekend, Dr. Armstrong. Not only is he the family doctor that saw Marc growing up, but Marc is also friends with his kids. That's Manti for you. We called him at home to come to the clinic and check things out. I cried on the way there. I just kept saying, "I don't want have my baby. I'm not ready! We don't have any clothes or anything!" When Dr. Armstrong took a look, he didn't waste any time. He told Marc to drive responsibly, but that we needed to get to the hospital right away. The baby was coming whether we liked it or not!
The drive to the hospital is half an hour. I called my family and told them what was going on, and they couldn't believe it. My wonderful father helped me to stop crying about the situation by reminding me that though it wasn't according to plan, it would all be okay. He even added his new mantra: "It's just adversity." He and the rest of my family helped me to get through contractions and even made me laugh. They even called my sister in N.C. and held up the phones to each other so we could talk. Here are the pictures that they took to chronicle the situation:
We pulled into the emergency entrance and a nurse with a wheelchair was waiting. It was a slow day at the hospital, and here we came with plenty for everyone to talk about and do! We went straight to the delivery room and got down to business. Dr. Armstrong was hot on our heels, and arrived a few minutes later. A few minutes after him, my mother-in-law arrived. Dr. Armstrong said that I would be ready to push very soon. With a marvelous nurse on my left and my husband and mother-in-law on the right, the moment had come. I pushed and they all saw some red hair! About 40 minutes from admittance, we had our second son.
7 lbs even, 18 inches long. Auburn hair! Perfect.
This little guy decided to convenience everyone by coming on a holiday weekend. None of my siblings at home had to work, and they came to visit the next day, bringing Marc's sister with them. Marc had work off as well, which we had been worried that he wouldn't when the baby came. It was also great to have people to babysit Ethan while all of this was going on.
I had forgotten how much peace a newborn can bring into a home. They are just so small and sweet and sleepy. We love him so very much and look forward to getting to know his personality and see him interact with his brother.
Thankfully, instead of being in labor right now, I am holding my sweet 2 week old son in my arms.
Everything went great, but was not according to plan at all. I shouldn't be surprised by this, since a lot of my life happens this way, but I feel better when I have a plan. I was visiting Marc's parents in Manti for Memorial Day weekend when I went into labor. The strangest part is, I was warned in a way. The night before we drove to Manti I had a dream that I was in labor at Marc's parents'. In the dream my mother-in-law said, "I guess you'll just have to have your baby at my hospital." She works as a nurse at San Pete Valley hospital. I also had felt that my baby would come early, but dismissed it as wishful thinking.
The night before I hardly slept a wink on a thin mattress. In the morning, I thought I was having Braxton-Hicks contractions until I realized they were starting to be pretty regular, 10 minutes apart. I was in denial though. I wanted to have my baby with my doctor in St. George. I wanted things to go according to plan. I kept telling everyone that it was no big deal. DENIAL.
Around 6 that evening, there was no denying it any longer. The contractions were getting more intense and now were 5 minutes apart. I told Marc, "I think this is the real thing. It actually is the real thing!" Luckily, my mother-in-law knew exactly which doctor was on call that weekend, Dr. Armstrong. Not only is he the family doctor that saw Marc growing up, but Marc is also friends with his kids. That's Manti for you. We called him at home to come to the clinic and check things out. I cried on the way there. I just kept saying, "I don't want have my baby. I'm not ready! We don't have any clothes or anything!" When Dr. Armstrong took a look, he didn't waste any time. He told Marc to drive responsibly, but that we needed to get to the hospital right away. The baby was coming whether we liked it or not!
The drive to the hospital is half an hour. I called my family and told them what was going on, and they couldn't believe it. My wonderful father helped me to stop crying about the situation by reminding me that though it wasn't according to plan, it would all be okay. He even added his new mantra: "It's just adversity." He and the rest of my family helped me to get through contractions and even made me laugh. They even called my sister in N.C. and held up the phones to each other so we could talk. Here are the pictures that they took to chronicle the situation:
We pulled into the emergency entrance and a nurse with a wheelchair was waiting. It was a slow day at the hospital, and here we came with plenty for everyone to talk about and do! We went straight to the delivery room and got down to business. Dr. Armstrong was hot on our heels, and arrived a few minutes later. A few minutes after him, my mother-in-law arrived. Dr. Armstrong said that I would be ready to push very soon. With a marvelous nurse on my left and my husband and mother-in-law on the right, the moment had come. I pushed and they all saw some red hair! About 40 minutes from admittance, we had our second son.
7 lbs even, 18 inches long. Auburn hair! Perfect.
This little guy decided to convenience everyone by coming on a holiday weekend. None of my siblings at home had to work, and they came to visit the next day, bringing Marc's sister with them. Marc had work off as well, which we had been worried that he wouldn't when the baby came. It was also great to have people to babysit Ethan while all of this was going on.
I had forgotten how much peace a newborn can bring into a home. They are just so small and sweet and sleepy. We love him so very much and look forward to getting to know his personality and see him interact with his brother.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
OOOPS!
Oh boy.
I promised that I would post so much more often. It hasn't happened.
How embarrassing.
I have composed a few posts that I didn't publish, but they don't count. So I will attempt to fill you in on what is going on. My friend Val told me that it doesn't have to be perfect to post, I just need to do it. She is right. I just need to post without trying to get it just so each time. That will take the pressure off.
Good news tidbit #1: Marc got a job, and another job!
Okay, so that no one is confused, no he didn't already have one. He has a paid internship with the USU extension, but once the funds are gone, he is done. Ever since we moved down here, he has been trying to find something that will add to his internship hours and will carry on when he is done. He was blessed to get two. One is as a teller at Wells Fargo, and the other is as a counselor at a non profit called Colored Country Community Housing. He works 25 hours a week at the first, 20 at the second, and still teaches a class and some other things for the USU extension. He is a busy guy!
Good news tidbit #2: Ethan is sleeping on a toddler bed!
I wanted to have Ethan used to sleeping on a bed before the baby came, and expected it to be a difficult transition. I imagined to myself the extreme sleep deprivation that occurs with a newborn getting up every few hours being compounded by a toddler who is now sleeping on a bed that he can get out of. The very first day that we had the bed (thanks Anjanae!) Ethan played on it most of the day. When bedtime came Marc suggested that we have him sleep on it, that Ethan seemed to want to sleep on it. I was pretty nervous. I didn't think that he was ready. Marc was right. He slept on it all night without getting up or falling off, and has ever since! It is SUCH a relief to have that out of the way.
Good news tidbit #3: My brother put in his mission papers!
It is so surreal that my baby brother, who is 7 years younger, is going to go on a mission. I can't believe that he is that old! He should have his call in a couple of weeks, but I haven't speculated about where he will go. There are just so many missions in the world now, it could be anywhere. I am excited for him because I know that he will be a good missionary. He is such a solid, faithful person. I love him so much!
In other news, my belly continues to grow with the baby. We are so excited to have another person in our family! I truly don't mind being pregnant, no matter how big and uncomfortable I get. I just get excited when I think of my sweet Eli coming along. I just love my boys!
Well, TTFN, hopefully I will post again really soon.
I promised that I would post so much more often. It hasn't happened.
How embarrassing.
I have composed a few posts that I didn't publish, but they don't count. So I will attempt to fill you in on what is going on. My friend Val told me that it doesn't have to be perfect to post, I just need to do it. She is right. I just need to post without trying to get it just so each time. That will take the pressure off.
Good news tidbit #1: Marc got a job, and another job!
Okay, so that no one is confused, no he didn't already have one. He has a paid internship with the USU extension, but once the funds are gone, he is done. Ever since we moved down here, he has been trying to find something that will add to his internship hours and will carry on when he is done. He was blessed to get two. One is as a teller at Wells Fargo, and the other is as a counselor at a non profit called Colored Country Community Housing. He works 25 hours a week at the first, 20 at the second, and still teaches a class and some other things for the USU extension. He is a busy guy!
Good news tidbit #2: Ethan is sleeping on a toddler bed!
I wanted to have Ethan used to sleeping on a bed before the baby came, and expected it to be a difficult transition. I imagined to myself the extreme sleep deprivation that occurs with a newborn getting up every few hours being compounded by a toddler who is now sleeping on a bed that he can get out of. The very first day that we had the bed (thanks Anjanae!) Ethan played on it most of the day. When bedtime came Marc suggested that we have him sleep on it, that Ethan seemed to want to sleep on it. I was pretty nervous. I didn't think that he was ready. Marc was right. He slept on it all night without getting up or falling off, and has ever since! It is SUCH a relief to have that out of the way.
Good news tidbit #3: My brother put in his mission papers!
It is so surreal that my baby brother, who is 7 years younger, is going to go on a mission. I can't believe that he is that old! He should have his call in a couple of weeks, but I haven't speculated about where he will go. There are just so many missions in the world now, it could be anywhere. I am excited for him because I know that he will be a good missionary. He is such a solid, faithful person. I love him so much!
In other news, my belly continues to grow with the baby. We are so excited to have another person in our family! I truly don't mind being pregnant, no matter how big and uncomfortable I get. I just get excited when I think of my sweet Eli coming along. I just love my boys!
Well, TTFN, hopefully I will post again really soon.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Introducing baby #2!
It's a...........................................
BOY!!!!
He was nice enough to stay still so we could get a good look between the legs. Very different from his older brother. At the end when we wanted to get a 3D image, he decided that enough was enough. He was wiggling and kicking, tossing and turning. What a stinker! Finally, we got this hard to decipher shot of him with a hand in his mouth.
It is exciting to be having another boy. We already have a name picked out: Eli. As my mother-in-law Korinne said "sticking with the vowels are we?" I promise that we aren't choosing this name to make life hard, though it gets tricky with an Ethan, Aiden, and Ian already in the cousin name pool.
I hope that my boys will be friends........someday. I am sure that Ethan will not like the fact that he has to share the attention around here. He really is king right now. I will try to prepare him as much as I can, but he will only be 2 when Eli comes. I'm sure that it will be a shock to his world either way.
Woohoo look at me! A post two days in a row!
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